i'm starting to love this!

As a BzzAgent, I got a chance to join this campaign to try out the Maybelline Baby Lips and Great Lash mascara. Woah the lip product exceeded my expectations and it's a purse product that I'm addicted to using. It's gentle, natural and great smelling.

got a tumblr!

check it out to see my 3 months posts on my tumblr when I was in china 2011!

MAKE up blog sale 1

Stila Clutch makeup bag-$4 [pending]

Stila lip glaze (Brown sugar)-$5 [pending]

Stila illuminating finishing powder (bronze)-$10 [pending]

Stila eye shadow quad (Montmartre)-$8 [sold]

Stila lipstick (Natalie)-$8 [pending]

Stila Convertible lip/cheeks tint (orchid)-$8 [pending]

Clinique Colour Surge (Sparkling Sage & French Vanilla)-$3

Clinique two mascaras-$1 each [sold]

Clinique long lasting lipstick s(beauty)$3 [pending]

Clinique different lipstick (tender heart)-$3 [pending]

Korres natural products body butter (guava)-$5

Rimmel foundation primer-$5

Degree body spray (honeysuckle and tea tree oil)-$3

Hair bow Velcro-$1 [pending]

Epicare hair removal-$2 [sold]

Facial cleansing sponges-$2 each ($3 for hand fitting one)

Allure winning Hollywood Fashion tape-$4

Ardell’s pixie dust eyelashes with glue-$3

Bring along mirror-$1 [sold]

NYX concealer in a jar (light)-$2

Claire’s 9 pairs of earrings (unworn)-$5

Dramatic diamond hoop-$5

Bow Tie hair clip (pink satin and purple satin)-$3 each

Golden hair clip-$2

Leopard accessory belt/necklace-$10

Sephora gift set (eyeshadow, nano your eyes and mascara)-$8 [pending]

Bare Minerals set (original and mineral veil)-$4 [sold]

Benefit To go Set-$6 [sold]

$1 samples (11 different items)

DonnaKaran Cashmere mist perfume sample spra-$2

Versus Versace sample spray-$2

Mica powder (paradise gold, Cellini blue, crystal ice)-$3 [gold and crystal ice pending]

Purple punch glitte-$4 [pending]

ELF mineral eyeshadow-$1 each (available in three shades)

ELF products ($0.75 each)

-customized individual eye shadows (four shades)

-customized individual compact palette

--eye shadow quad (nymph dreams)

-Eye shimmer pencil (two shades)

--all over color stick

-Facial whip (spotlight)

-Elf eye brow stencil [sold]

-Lip gloss (cherry bomb) [pending]

Clinique spring makeup bag-$6

Clinique floral makeup bag-$5

Bobbi Brown bag-$6 [sold]

Body shop strawberry body butter-$3 [sold]

Mac eyeshadow (Sable)-$8 [sold]

Makeup fan brush-$3

Benefit gilded highlighter-$8 [sold]

Aerie golden mirror-$4 [sold]

Stila lip glaze stick (ginger bread)-$6

Bonne Bell Powder for face and body-$1

Revlon Color Stay (380 Rich Ginger)-$3

Clinique Redness solutions (daily relief cream)-$5 [pending]

Missha BB cream (SPF 42)-$7 [sold]

ELF eye shadow brush-$0.75 [sold]

ELF studio line powder brush-$2 [sold]

Beauty pop eye cake (liner cake-darkness)-$5 [sold]

Beauty pop cheek cake (beauty beauti)-$5 [sold]

Missha BB original cream (calm sensitive skin)-$8 [sold]

Conair curling iron-$9

Mini pro ½ in ceramic straightener-$10

MAKEUP SALE TIME!

so...someone requested sex

Sex sex sex. where do i even begin haha jp

its all about the right time. with the right person....right choice. ask yourself, "will i regret doing this later?"

it's sad to know that there are more girls who are virgins than guys who are virgins (or at least that's the way i feel). is it even possible to find a guy who's a virgin to marry? (that used to my mentality but not anymore.) when you find the right person, does it matter if he is still a virgin or not?

So many random scattered ideas are bouncing around in my head, so the following will just be one idea jumping to the next. (in no particular order)

1. organism is like having your soul pulled out of you and re-embed in you after. organism is like you've finished the SAT that you've been studying for months for and got an 2400 right after. organism is like having chocolate melt on your tongue and uplifting your whole body.

2. sex is addicting, but you don't want to get hooked onto it. sex is a drug.

3. release each breath of freedom. sex can bring your emotions out as you become a part of the intense sexual realm, the more you are into it the greater the emotions are and the better it feels. with each breath, you allow each emotions to flow out and through your body (from the very top of strand of hair to the last skin cell on your foot). your body starts to ache (in a good way), you begin to struggle with each movement in the moment, you want to release more and more emotions, during this state you will rise to your fullest and everything feels good.

4. some say sex feels better when you don't use a condom. does it feel better when you find out you missed your period?

5. for those who haven't had sex yet, you never know what you're missing out on unless you've gone through it.

6. in human development family studies class, teacher was talking about when you rub a dog's stomach, you feel so happy and they flip over and show you their genitals. "that's the real way to show someone you trust them, right?" professor said. do we always trust the one that we have sex with?

7. as you break each level in the baseball field (first base, 2nd, 3rd and home run). does the level(s) underneath the one you've gone to feel less good? if you've touched all bases, does holding hands still make your heart beat faster?

8. Sex. Is this what i really need? Going through life never experiencing it is like never going on a roller coaster to experience the rush, but everyone describes the rush differently to someone who has never been on a roller coaster.

the question arises, “do i really want to feel the rush?” People that never experienced it just live normally with their lives, they don't need such “rush”, but for those who have exposure to it, they tend to know more and might want it more.

CAUTION: I'm not telling you to have sex! just saying what i think about sex in general. it's a topic that is not widely talked about amongst asians. we (or at least I, myself) never got "the talk" from my parents. if i was still in china, i would have learned about sex education much later.

DO it with someone you love or someone who you think it's worth give your body to. Think about it this way, it's not like a guy's thing changes after doing it with a lot of girls. but that's not true vice versa.

Find the right partner.

Find the right partner.

FIND THE RIGHT PARTNER. Having the right partner for sexual activity is like going with someone you trust to lead you out of a nebulous forest. Full of trees that block the sunlight, not allowing for those to seeing beyond that realm that your in. No sense of direction to guide you through the obsolete dense forest, no where you turn you can get out, that is why you need to find the right partner. Some you can believe, trust, and love.

WITH OUT THESE REQUIREMENTS, SEX WILL NOT FEEL AS SATISFYING.

Don't do anything you'll regret later in life because life isn't reversible. When you want to change the past, it's already too late.

Appreciate your body because in the end, it is your body. Nobody else's. Your's. Take care of it. no money or anything in this world can trade for the value of good health.

-A

10 things I look for in a guy (my own preference)

Below is my personal ideal boyfriend check-list:

1. nice. kind. honest. caring. loyal etc. -

all those expected things that all girls would want is all included in this #1. fair enough?

2. decently body shaped-

not too chubby. not too diesel. not too boney. Someone's who's decently fit and whom I feel secure and safe around. I don't want someone who's going to scream like a girl and run away when I'm in danger lol, but I don't want someone who just has muscles to their advantage for the wrong reasons.

3. think before you talk-

(esp when arguing) i like guys who are more reserved in the sense that when you're in a fight w/ him, he wouldn't just say everything that registers through his head and yells everything out. people say anything when they're mad even when they don't mean it. It makes it so that you're solving the conflict in a more intellectual/easier way to work it out with someone who is calm and talks less than talk more in a fight. it tends to seem violent too

4. personality type: more reserved than outgoing-

Guys who are easy-going and get along with everyone. That doesn't necessarily mean outgoing though. If I had to choose between super outgoing to super reserved, probably reserved. I just can't deal with someone's constant voice blahbing24/7. Hard to find someone who's a talker and a listener. Every reserved person has a loud side. They're just loud and talkative w/ the ppl they want to be loud and talkative.

5. Supportive and trustworthy/ability to trust others.

If I go to a party with friends on a night he can't go, the fact that he supports me by saying "Ok. Have fun and be safe. Let me know if you need anything" vs. "Ok. Don't grind with any guys, k? Don't drink bcs I don't want you to be drunk."

Sometimes when you're at your most down times, all you need is someone to support you and comfort you. That's it. The fact that he is there helps.

6. Positive outlook on life and optimism-

I cannot deal w/ ppl who are always so pessimistic! Negativity just brings the mood down.

I say: Want to go ice skating? he says: That's lame.

I say: I'm aiming for a B+ in physics class. he says: You're not going to since you suck at physics.

Encourage, rather than discourage. Share positivity, rather than negativity. Be nice, rather than be mean. (what's the point of being mean? nobody gains on either end)

7. Respect privacy-

There are things that should be kept confidential like personal savings in the bank, passwords to emails, etc. Not everything needs to be shared in a relationship. That's not lying. It's just personal privacy and confidentiality. (if that something affects the guy-ex: STDs, then you gotta tell them, but things like money and personal email don't need to be linked and shared by both)

8. individual freedom-

Sometimes you might think you're free, but you're not. Relationships comes w/ a price. If you think about whatever it is that's bothering you, ponder the question, "Does being in this relationship restrict the freedom that I enjoy while being a single?" People who are happy and in relationship are ones who are giving up freedom to date others etc for the guy, but they would sacrifice that for the guy and that's awesome.

BUT if you are restricted of things that you enjoy doing but can't bcs your guy tell you not too, but you could do all those if you were single then you might not be happy in that relationship.

He doesn't let you dance, spend too much time with other guys, talk on the phone late at night with other guys etc but you can't give those up, well.... there's a problem right?

9. Humble and laid-back-

Arrogance and confidence are two different things.

Arrogance is just annoying and very unattractive in a guy, and when someone who has too much confidence, it might just lead to the wrong characteristics. A guy who is down for anything and isn't picky about things are so much easier to get along w/ ones who have too much opinion.

10. Curious and explorative/adventurous-

I get bored with the same routines and same conversations. Who doesn't, right? When you have the curiosity of exploring, you'll always learn and realize new knowledge and undergo experiences that you haven't before. What is life if experience does not exist? (philosophical question right there).

Studies have shown: if you're relationship is beginning to be boring, the way to revive the spark is to do things both of you have never done before. Travel to Dubai together! Go skydiving together! Go back to where you guys met or had your 1st date or honeymoon?

Lesson of the blog:

Each and everyone is unique in their own unique ways because of how we've been raised in the family, impacted by society and experiences we've gone through as individuals.

We all have our own personalities and therefore preferences.

Opposites attract but commonalities in people attract too. It's your personality and the expectations you have that determines the perfect match for you. On top of all that, how hard is it to have that person who match with you to like you back!

Life is hard. Finding the right love with the right person is even harder.

relationships

I realized that it's been a while that I have been single. Just after ending with someone in HS, I'm in another relationship in the beginning of college (now).

(even tho my goal is to not have a bf for the next 2 years until junior year...fail)

Someone special and someone who had the characteristics of someone I've been waiting for happened to like me back, so I can't let the chance slip away, right?

Although I'm happy and perfectly satisfied in the relationship, I wonder what I'm missing out for being single.

As much as you want to believe that you still have freedom when you're in a relationship, it's a trap.

#1Truth: You are limited and more refined when in a relationship than when you're single.

Reason: It's no longer about what YOU want as an individual, it's what YOU and HIM wants. Your decisions impacts not just YOU, but also HIM.

Overall: That's just a con but many pros completely outweigh the cons if you're with the right person. (if there's enough trust and love, freedom and restrictions shouldn't be an issue)

#2Truth: Don't LOOK and try so hard to find that special someone, because enjoy being single while you're single! When you're in a relationship, there's another layer of maturity that you need to be able to handle and not everyone's ready for it!

Reason: Unlike school, you HAVE to deal with the stress from school and mostly likely, school isn't an option, so you just have to deal with it. Well.....not relationships. YOU CHOOSE TO BE IN A RELATIONSHIP. you're never forced into one. Since having a bf isn't a necessity, you can avoid the stress, conflicts, drama etc.

Overall: like all situations, there's give and take for all situations, and having a bf is just another give and take situation. there are PROS and CONS. you could be missing out on the experience of love and connection and trust and bond (did someone say physical attractions too?)

LIFE AS WE LIVE IT

-When you have pros, you will always have cons that follow.

-When you have best moments of you're life, you definitely have had some sort of depressing phase as well. Life is a hill and that's LIFE!

-It's okay! life is relative. you won't enjoy the happy moments as much if the sad moments didn't exist.

(stay tuned for more my life related topics...gain views and insights)

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a new years midnight/morning skype

a complicated friendship/relationship was followed by an intense conversation then making up...

A girl cannot wish for more from a guy than a touching prayer to realize how much he loves her.

[1/1/11 3:59:17 AM]

dear god

i speak to you tonight with my mind and my heart in this new year 2011...

everyday that continues on from this year forth will be memorable with her...she has not just given me a new way to see the world but gave me something i never had, something i always wanted for 18 years, love. Love that you speak of is and should be within everyone, and finally i have obtained it through, from, and for of her...

i shall not give up so easily without a fight or allow us to fall apart because of any small situations that will overcome us in the following time to come. And with your guidance and knowledge, guide us a way to obtain this. With your aid, my connection with her shall never be lost.

i believe that you can help to provide the needs in our time together. Nothing will break us apart so easily because your hand will hold us together. God, this year is the year that I and this girl will be together with our hearts intertwined today (on the first day of 2011) and everyday that moves on forth this year will our hands hold tighter with each other.

and God, tonight is the night that i realized a few things. these few things that we realize shall not impact our bond, because our bond cannot be broken, for it is like the metal rod that cannot be cut by scissors. God, from all this time that i have been with her, i realize more and more how much i appreciate her so that that i never want to forget or loose what i have with her because of any difficulty or hardship that might come in our way. Nothing shall destroy this. Nothing will ever break our love for one another and separate us. In god's name, Amen.

*lightly edited for grammar and audience purpose*