i let go

Letting go isn't so hard once you get it, but too bad i haven't learned how.
I set your wings free, to fly to where you belong (or at least where you think you belong).
Summer is a dangerous time, summer hook ups are even more toxic than I had predicted.
I endured through things I never want to experience in my childhood life, but because of you, I had to deal with the puffy eyes from tears and stabs in the heart.

"I thought we're just friends since sophomore year, right?" If I said right, I would have been gone from you since.

I would have chose not to go to your house at night, not celebrate 9/29 anniversary even after sophomore year, not liked the Valentine's day present. I would have distanced myself from you before I get hurt from you.

I knew HS couples don't last until college, but at least I would think you would wait until college to find someone. It's dammnn right that there cant be such thing as best friends between a girl and guy, because the friendship is always being risked when one of them finds someone else to replace you.

Sometimes, you think of all guys in the same boat.
They cherish you when they have nobody else yet, and trashes you when they do. Because having one person by your side to care for you is better than none, right?

Love makes you smile, but love also forces tears.
Where there is any affection, there will be hurts.
Where there's the most love, the more easily it can turn into hate.
My heart bleeds as I set your wings and desires free. (in memory of 8/23)